26th August 2006

26th August 2006. The date that will always remain in my mind as the date that changed my life. This day the stork came to visit with news. Yes, I am PREGNANT, and it still feels weird to say it.

How did it happen? Was it Bali? Was it the treatment? What did we do? I have no idea. The one time I said I didn’t want to think about it, it happened. Maybe it was the change of air. Maybe it was the stress-free holiday. Maybe it was the holy snake hehehe. Maybe it was just our time. Whatever it is, of course I accept it with open arms. We both do.

The weeks leading to the news, I did feel some changes. I did feel weird. I pee a whole load more, I had to wake up in the middle of the night to pee. I got reaaallllyy bloated, there are some body changes, mood changes, hormone changes, overall, I just felt WEIRD. But of course I didn’t think much of it, till the day IT was supposed to come, and it didn’t. The first few days, I just brushed it off, thinking perhaps the holiday changed the timing, I was under stress, I’m just tired, something else could have caused the delay. But after a week, I started thinking “could this be it?” But still I was too scared to hope, too tired to get disappointed, so again I brushed it off. Even when I started to get overwhelmed with fatigue all the time, I thought it was because IT was late.

After almost 2 weeks delay, after I started getting nauseous and ill and all, I finally summed up the courage to test. That is, I suddenly woke up on the Saturday morning of 26th August, woke hubster up, asked him if we should go to clinic to test straight or should we get a home test? He opted for home test and of course he was the one who had to go and buy it la while I hold my bladder. I peed on the stick, left it in the toilet and asked hubster to go take a look at it. He came out smiling excitedly, showing me the plus sign on the stick. “Positive!!!”

Now that I was *almost* sure I wouldn’t be disappointed, we went to a clinic to double confirm it. And sure enough, it was another positive sign… Next stop, to a gynae, which I shall be going to, soon. Soon.

What have I been feeling so far? Nauseous, vomitting, headaches, dizziness, extreme fatigue and sleepiness, with the bathroom becoming my second bedroom. Emotionally? I am ecstatic, there is this tiny being growing in my tummy…. and I am also bloody paranoid…. Me?? As a mother??? I feel I haven’t even grown up enough myself.. and now, I’m gonna have to grow a baby…..

But no doubt about it, I am excited beyond words… and I can’t wait to see what our baby will look like…..